William Faulkner once said that "the only thing worth writing about is the human heart in conflict with itself." So that is where I start from. Life teaches us well I suppose. Some lessons are much harder than others. Some leave us feeling lower than we ever thought we could be...and in those very moments we find a grace stronger than we know how to resist. In the middle of the confusion that comes from a hurting heart and swollen eyes I reminded the Lord how unworthy I was of Him loving me. His response was "Let me hold you." In all of my stubborness I said "no, that kind of love I do not deserve." But with a pursuing kind of love...He sat with me until I could do nothing else but fall into the arms of a love that is relentless. I guess it is the most painful moments, where we find our souls laid bare before him, that He teaches us some of the greatest lessons of grace,mercy, and friendship that we may ever know. He is faithful to find us where we are, even when our prayers are so soft that they are barley audible.
I hope I never get over how amazing God's grace truly is. Growing is painful but His nearness brings healing-even if it sometimes seems slow.
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